Like the first picture? its so damn colorful! lol.
Hey this is more of a writing post. so i know that most bloggers wont really be interested in reading it. so this is for the ones who truly bother and care. i love you!
Ever felt like life's a race thats running by too fast? The end and the prize being death? The uncertainty of life after that? Well ive felt like that too. but really when i look at my life, i want to take it slow. today i regret what i said as a kid. I had declared that dreaded day, "I cant wait to grow up!" but now i realised this shit really sucks.
Exams after exams. prep talks from all the adults in my life. endless lectures from my dad telling me to change my attitude, behavior and superiority complex. I dint even know i had THAT much attitude. guess he must be right somehwre after seeing me grow up these last few years. Then after exams and family comes friends and the pressure to be liked, loved, accepted by all. Its tough, i bet you know all about it. I mean to say that most times im with friends, ill be laughing and smiling. ALOT. but really, my minds stuck on the beautiful yesterday and the uncertain tomorrow whilst my heart on the other hand is in another world away from the blue earth. Well after friends comes my hobbies and life interests. Mainly reading and talking. yes i talk alot. oh yes music.I write lyrics and stuff you see. Finally comes boys. A topic i haven't been dwelling much on because ive been doing past papers and studying my butt off. literally. I swear if you lived my life you would kill yourself from boredom.
SO boys. The opposite sex with their curly or wavy dark hair, dark eyes, messed up mind, strong arms, football boots, strong deodorants, that make me and every other girl on planet earth go crazy. yeah really. its funny how just their smile can change everything. anyways ive been a mess with boys. My ex, my ex before my ex and my friend- just friend. all perfect.
My ex. well i really dont understand why he has come running back into my life. we had a sad ugly ending and now around a year later he is saying sorry and telling me nothing was ever my fault and that it was all just him being immature and childish. and i being the stupid me smiled and agreed to it and forgave it. Its tough to say no to him. at least for me.
My friend. well hes a unique piece.
Finally i feel like im at an age where this is not whats meant for me. i mean i have exmas, family and friends. why all this boy drama. so yeah im just gonna keep to flirting, dating but no more. cos i cant handle anymore. unless i finally meet that guy who makes me... explode? yeah that. i bet ill break this in an hour.